It’s that time of the year again. The the first week of August. Which means my birthday is only a few weeks away. In my teens and 20’s, this time of year was met with excitement and anticipation. But as I straddle my 30’s, it’s somehow not so exciting anymore. I’m not sure at what point happiness turned into dread and panic. But that’s usually what I feel around this time of year.
I am sure everyone thinks the same thing. “I am not far along enough in life,” “I should be doing this or doing that.” “Everyone else is having a baby but me….” and so on and so forth. I’ve really been trying hard not to do that anymore. Not just as a birthday thing but for the rest of my life. I truly believe that you get everything that you need in your life, at the moment that you need it. Not when you want it – but when you need it. Not when you’re ready for it. But rather, when it’s ready for you.
I’m trying to let go and let God. It’s a little nerve wracking. But I have to realize that I am not in control. God is in control and he’s got my back so there’s nothing to really worry about. I am feeling inspired in my life right now. My friends, family and faith are helping me to stay focused on my personal and professional goals. Which, I might add, I am attacking with such zest and aggression that I think I’ve lost five pounds without even trying (ok, I have been trying a little).
I am really enjoying my job and the fun people I get to work with every day. Gone are the days when work has been a constant stresser in my life. I’m enjoying my relationships and making a few new friends. Gone are all those toxic, negative influences. Gone are all those burdens that I’ve been carrying around for the past few years. Now I have extra time to spend working on my hobbies and even taking on a side gig working with Stella & Dot!
Perhaps I am looking forward to my birthday this year. Maybe I am a little excited about what this coming year has in store for me. Whatever it is – I’ll definitely be posting about it on this blog 🙂